I’m not a locksmith
But this is bullshit
Trying to get the door open
To you and revealing
All that you’re feeling
Inside there’s a library and I’m hoping
To read the books
On how you work so I can look
Deep into your soul
But my brain is fried
And I’m still stuck outside
Trying to listen into the keyhole
I know that there’s not a doorbell
I’ve been trying to knock, but oh well
I guess you’re never coming to the door
Standing here isn’t healthy
So just come out here and tell me
Whether or not I should just go home
(Even if you just want me to fuck off)
You can tell me to go away
If that’s what you have to say
I promise that it won’t make a mess of this
Until you tell me to stay or leave
I’ll be listening for what you believe (/perceive)
I just can’t handle these mixed messages
I don’t think that I’m
A very good spy
But I’ve done the best I can on my part
Trying to discern
What I have to learn
To try to find a way into your heart
I’m not a creep
I’m just trying to keep
An eye out for you so I know you’re there
And ultimately
I’m just trying to see
If someone’s in there who will care
Because I have no place else to go
And I feel like I could be useful here
Your heart’s in bad condition
And I know you think you’re in no position
To show me or anyone else
The scars on your true self
In the jungle of entangling vines
It’s hard to read between the lines
But all the while, I’m only trying
To find out all the stuff you’re hiding
As nuch as I’d like to take you along
To give you somewhere that you belong
I don’t think I can ever cut you loose
No matter how sharp a blade I use
Well it looks like, just as I feared
You’re trapped from escaping here
But if I can’t take you anywhere else
I can at least stay here to learn about your true self
People come as puzzles to me
With infinite complexity
And don’t take this as an insult
But you’re the most difficult
I admire the depth and intensity
But not when that’s withheld from me
There’s something to be admired between
But I can’t admire something I’ve never seen
You don’t have any passions
You don’t know what you like
So what can I get to know if you
Don’t tell me who you are
How can you be honest
If you’re not honest with yourself
If you can’t tell who you really are
Then how can you tell anyone else
You can tell me anything you think you know
About yourself, but I won’t believe you
If I ever put together an album, this is what the list of songs would look like.
We’re all lions kept in cages
Only rotting with the ages
And the purpose in our lives we never learn
We’ve no talents we can flaunt
And none of the things we truly want
But we can jump through flaming hoops and not get burned
Being made to jump through hoops
Isn’t to us any big whoop
But it’s the one thing we can do since we’ve been trained
Because this world that man has made
Looms over us with us in the shade
But in the end, it was we ourselves who are to blame.
I’ve had aspirations and dreams
But none of them fit within the scheme
Of society’s predetermined overtone
Because over us it towers
The conglomerate’s everlasting power
That can take away every single thing I own
I guess if I never change around
My views then I never will have found
A way to stay alive with or without my dreams
But if I can still hold on
To them, then I guess I’ll carry on
That’s the only way to live on earth, it seems.
I can have perfect focus
If no one distracts me
I can be invincible
If no one attacks me
I can be a god
If no one else believes me
I can be invisible
If no one ever sees me
I am invisible if no one’s there
I’m a celebrity to those who care
I can be brave if you’re a coward
I can fly, but only downward
I can search the world for acceptance
Only to be taught a lesson
You might want to be liked by all
Only to find out it’s impossible
We’re not perfect ‘cause we all have quirks
And the ones who say they don’t are jerks
The only way to succeed in the end
Is to know to focus on your friends
Not everyone is going to give a damn
But some will and you have to find the ones who do
And if you want people to give a damn
You can start with yourself and be one of the ones who do
I can be brave if you’re a coward
I can fly, but only downward
I am invisible if no one’s there
I’m a celebrity to those who care
I have no idea what the hell you’re talking about
And I wouldn’t have it any other way
Our minds are puzzle pieces with lobes and holes cut out
That fit together if arranged the right way
I could never want a girl and me to get with each other
Really well unless I noticed first,
That before our bodies interlocks with each other
And my mind could fit together with hers
Before you can give me your heart
Let me take a look what’s inside your brain
Turn the gears, take things apart
To ensure it’s all well-maintained
It’s absolutely necessary, and really rather inviting
I promise I’ll put it all together when I’m done
That’s really the whole point—so it’ll always be exciting
Getting to know where one another is from
You could be a model if you wanted,
But that’s not what I’m interested in
I want to know what goes on in your mind
Can you tell me that that’s some kind of sin?
Who knows, that might just be what you’re looking for
If you don’t want to be called just beautiful anymore
I can give you so much more
And I just want to be your friend
I hope the time that you spend on your looks
Isn’t out of low confidence
Because confidence isn’t people telling you you look good
It’s knowing that you’ve got your own back, and that you should
Stay with the people who will love you for who you are
So release your inhibitions and let all of us know who you are
Stay that way, and I know that as long as you do, you’ll go far
And no matter what the people say, you’ll find your way up to the stars
The people who matter will tell you you’re great
And anyone else can go and jump in a lake
Remember that and nobody can get you down
Don’t worry about the assholes and you’ll go to town
I want to let you know that when I spend my time with you
It’s heavenly
But when your friends surround us I don’t know what I’m to do
And I never see
How to act when they are there because it’s odd and such,
How fast we’ve moved
And even though I didn’t either, when you didn’t talk much
I was confused
But I saw a glimmer
Of your cuteness that shimmered
And it stood out in the darkness
Brought upon by the lack of starkness
I want to let you know that when I said “hi” to you
Like we do all the time
Intermittently even though I’ve been here with you
I saw it shine
You went to answer cutely but then you caught yourself
And went on, ignoring
And if it’s what I think it was, you wanted no one else
To be shocked by our thing
Buts still I saw that glimmer
Of your cuteness that shimmered
And it stood out in the coldness
Because your friends shouldn’t know this
Thing we share
The man who invented the teleporter
Didn’t do it on anyone’s orders
He did the research on his own accord
Because he found that he couldn’t afford
To be away from her any longer
It mandated that he must be stronger
But he had much more brain than braun
And chose his brain to focus on
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Science wasn’t his motivation
He had, in fact, a much stronger fixation
On the special girl that he held close to his heart
Yet they were two hundred miles apart
He worked and toiled for months and years
To make the void within him disappear
The scientist wanted to be with his love
And that’s how the teleporter was conceived of
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Despite the long hours, he’d no time to spare
He was famished and tired but he didn’t care
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To be continued…